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I was waiting in a field with Sadie. Finally Brian pulls up in a large semi. There are also other trucks with him. So we go looking inside the truck. It has TV’s and radios, beds, it was pretty much like a home inside the cab. The trailer itself was for cargo. So we all got out of the truck. I was really happy to see Brian again. Brian’s partner jumped inside because it was his turn to drive it. Brian jumped inside this 4x4 truck and started heading down this dirt road. The others that were with him followed. Me and Sadie jumped on separate bikes. We sped off after them. When we caught up they were parked by a beach. The dirt road headed into the water, but had ramps and stuff on the way. Sadie kept going on the road and sped into the water. She did not slow down at all and her head went under the water but somehow was still riding the bike. I followed her into the water and all of the people at the beach started cheering like we were performing stunts. She got to a ramp and emerged from the water to jump it. I followed her. We kept jumping these ramps sticking out of the water. There was one final ramp. It was at the edge of the world though, like in video games how there is a force field that will not let you go any farther. On the other side of it was orange water of an endless ocean. Sadie jumped the ramp and I followed. Somehow we passed through the barrier and our bikes disappeared. We fell into the water. Sadie could not swim and I had to grab her and keep us both above the water. Minutes before we could breathe under the water, but now we were trapped behind this force field and had to hope someone rescued us. No one came and it was night. Sadie was tired and started to fall asleep. I told her that she could sleep and that I would stay awake the whole night swimming to keep us from drowning.

Apparently I was dreaming all of this. I woke up in my room in my bed. Sadie was sleeping next to me because she had not gone home the night before. My parents thought she had left. Me and her had been too scared to “do anything” when my parents were there. I woke up and sat on my bed and she got up with me. We were thinking about whether to have sex or not. We didn’t want to get caught so we decided to wait till we were alone. So we started “fooling around” a bit. We were just about to have sex regardless of my parents when my dad woke up to jump in the shower. My mom was still fast asleep. Sadie decided that this was the best time to hurry up and get out of my house without being caught. She hurried up and ran outside and jumped in her car and sped away. My dad got out of the shower and went to work. My mom woke up and started walking down the street. I knew both of my parents would be gone awhile. Now I was alone at home. I tried to call Sadie so she would come back over so we could have some fun, but her cell phone was off. I could not call her house because her parents were there. I was alone.
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I had this dream last night. It is odd, I have had almost no dreams, then all of a sudden I start ahving them again. Dreams are so cool...

I think we were playing some kind of game. Everyone had a partner (a male and female paired together) and they were trying to get all these different items, kind of like a scavenger hunt. My partner was a girl. I’m not quite sure who it was… At first I think she was Sadie, but then sometimes she turned into Ashlee, and then was Sadie again. So we were traveling through the woods trying to find these items.
We came across a girl that just found some dinosaur eggs. It was at the edge of the swamp and by a log. She was alone and her partner was no where to be seen. So me and Ashlee attacked the person. We defeated them easily. This game did not involve actual deaths when a person got hurt, they felt pain, but when they died they just got teleported back to the entrance of the place to wait for the game to end. So whoever it was we killed off. Now each item you collect gives some kind of extra ability. The dinosaur eggs gave me the ability to jump higher, and my poleaxe weapon was able to extend now.
For some reason I wanted to go on to the next area to get the other remaining partner. I told Ashlee to stay there to guard the eggs and the entrance to the place I was going. I walked down this wooded path that went between a pond and a swamp. It was the only way to get to the other side.
On the other side was something like a castle. I headed in and found a bunch of stuff. A stairway headed up toward the roof. On the way up I entered a room and packed up a bunch of gold coins. After I got to the top I saw the other partner.
I had some kind of poleaxe for a weapon. Basically it was an extendable pole with a thin axe-like blade at the end. I lunged at the guy, but he dodged my attacks and jumped to the top of the building. He then cast a spell. All of a sudden a Chewbacca/dog like thing grew up from the ground to the right of me. It was made of clay. The think was very tall, I would say at least 10 feet. This being a dream and all I was able to jump about 10-15 feet in the air. I was running around this giant dog beast stabbing him in the next. It kept trying to swipe its clay arms at me to knock me out, but I would climb a wall to get away. I extended the poleaxe and sliced at its head. The blade cut straight through, but had no effect because the clay just re-attached itself. I did this many times, until I was able to cut off one of its legs fast enough so it fell to the ground. Once on the ground it was bleeding clay and I sliced it some more until it was dead.
After this was done I once more looked for the guy partner. I started to get worried about Sadie (Ashlee had turned into Sadie at this point). I did not want this guy to get after her because he seemed too strong.
So I jumped up and got to the top of the castle. In the courtyard below I saw the guy leaving towards the path between the swamp and pond. He must have had the item he was looking for.
I jumped off the top of the castle and landed next to him with my poleaxe blocking his path. He was surprised that I dispatched his beast so quickly. I told him that I had slain his partner already and that his end was near. He was not very strong, and had only a short sword. I would not let him cast any spells and kept him away with my longer reach. I dispatched him easily. After he disappeared his clothes fell to the ground. I reached in his pocket and took out a large emerald jewel. It was the source of his magic. Instead of walking across the path between the pond and the swamp, I jumped from the courtyard and ran across the top of the water back to where Sadie was.
I found her and she was still alright I showed her the Jewel and we guarded the eggs. When the game was over, me and Sadie won.
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I had a dream last night, and I figured that I might as well put it here, cause this site is not getting much action.

(This dream would appear to happen either in the present or in the future)

There was some kind of party at Craigs house, and he ended up inviting Sadie to come over. At first she didn't want to go, but eventually she became curious and changed her mind. I was kind of disappointed at her but she asked me to come with her. I'm not sure if she wanted some comfort or if she just wanted someone to be there for her or what. I really didn't want to go, but I kept my mouth shut and I went with her anyways.
Sadie drove to his house and we got out. He was surprised to see me, and not very happy about it I could see it in his eyes. I do not think Sadie saw that look on his face because she was overwhelmed with seeing him again. He let us come in the house and there was several guys and girl lounging around on his couch. Me and Sadie went to join them. I think Craig was against me from the start. Sadie took a seat at the couch and Craig sat next to her. There were no other places to sit and I was all alone on the floor. Everyone seemed to be having a good time laughing and stuff. Even Sadie. Eventually Craig wanted to have everyone go down stairs for more privacy. I was already in a bad mood and i wasn't feeling particularly trustworthy. The others started going down the stairs to his room and Craig asked Sadie to join him. She looked like she was happy and wanted to go down there. As she started to the stairs he gave me an evil eye and a smirk. I walked up to her and asked her if she wanted to go. She just looked at me funny as if i were crazy, and i told her that i didn't trust him. Everyone began to laugh at me and point fingers. Craig called me a loser and told me to get lost. Even his mom joined in. I started crying and headed into the bathroom. Craig told me to go home. However I could not take Sadie's keys and leave her to these monsters. Everyone else went downstairs. I sat in the bathroom with no light on. It was very dark but a few candles were lit and a redish hue spread throughout the room. I sat there with my back up against the sink not knowing what to do. Just the thought of her being happy around him again made me mad.
Downstairs Craigs plan began to happen. It all started out innocently enough, but soon things began to get nasty. Suddenly it broke out into an orgy and was as if everyone were a vampire. The lights grew dim as the clothes disappeared. Sadie sat amongst it all very confused. Craig rose up from his seat and asked her to join him. He approached slowly as king of those around him, his hand extended to her. She started to accept reaching out to touch him. At the last second she saw the plot. She knew she didn't want to be like them, the gluttonous vampires that they were. She turned from the room and ran, causeing and uproar behind her. When she shut the door, they forgot about her, turning to each other for the body's most animal pleasures. Sadie walked up the stairs and knocked on the bathroom. I told her to go away but she came in anyways. She sat down next to me and took my hand, squeezing. We looked at each other, and knew what had happened. We sat there in the near-darkness for a while. She got a wicked grin on her face and we both stood up. She grabbed the shampoo and I grabbed some lipstick. We covers the walls and drapery with the stuff making a great mess. Only when the walls and mirrors were covered with the shampoos and lipstick did we turn to leave the room. Both of us walked out of the house as Craig's mom entered the bathroom.
We heard the scream but did not look back. I got in the drivers side and she was the passenger. I raced the car out of the driveway as all of the others came runnig out of the house screaming in agony. I smiled and looked at her. She gave her silent thanks. The last thought of the dream: We knew.
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You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above

Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known all along it was all a lie
(Should have known it was all a lie)

Now (now) I know the truth (truth)
I'm through fearing you (you)
And I am free

You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above...

I had another "future telling" dream about, yep, Asshole jr.(Craig). I found out that now it's not Nancy that he's dating, but Betty...what a fucking joke, just one big pile of bullshit, like it has been all along...but anyway...I had this dream last night...

Let's see, it's started with me, sitting in Betty's kitchen at the table. The room was dark, except with candle light lighting the room, but there was no candles anywhere. Craig and Betty came into the room and at first seeing them made my heart drop. Then something iteresting happened. Betty and Craig started fighting and arguing with each other, like they weren't happy with each other at all. I then smirked and said to both of them to make them stop, "Isn't this interesting?" and then when they turned to me, not looking me in the eye, I said to Craig "See? You should have stayed with me." Then Craig looked both sad and guilty, like he knew that I was right. This is where the dream, I think, ends. However, I have this feeling that there is more after that, like a happy ending, like this whole nightmare finally ended...but not sure...

Another interesting dream there....*sigh*
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amused amused
Current Music:
"Lies (Remix)" by Evanescence
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I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away...

I believe that the unicorn, the dragon, and other creatures of myth are fact instead of fiction. I believe that all the crap on magic and thigs of the supernatural (and mythical beasts) all really existed at one point. There has to be some truth to it ,I think because where did the stories and the creatures come from if someone, somewhere didn't see it for themselves? I mean, way back when, the only way things could have gotten passed around was from people verbally based on what they saw and stuff (though people back then did exaggerate..hehe...but still). I think that magic once existed, but no longer does because of something that happened along the way. I think that there is fact behind the fiction. It's just that the fact was exaggerated by those people who saw it. People were lacking intelligence back then, so it could be possible that people exaggerated what they saw because they knew that others would believe it. I think that these things and creatures and such did exist, but like everything had to come to an end and so they no longer exist except in our minds and books. Or it really could be just a bunch of crap people wanted to believe and pass on...hehe
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busy
Current Music:
"Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson
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Are there any powers you wish you could have? Any wishes you would want to be granted to you? And why? And then write the downside to that wish/power (if there is one).

Do you wish for immortality? Ability to fly? Money?

Try to make it something that you would really want even if it is selfish. (I don't wanna see 'world peace', as we all know is impossible. :) )

My Wishes...: (not in any order)

1. Immortality. The ability to not age/die. I would never have to worry about dying or getting hurt. I wouldn't fear for myself because everyting would always turn out okay. I would not have to worry about aging and getting old. I would not get any diseases or anything like that. I would live to experience many things. I would learn almost everything and be completely self sufficient in everything. If I needed a house I would build one, and know exactly how to do it. I would get to see the future, how we colonize space, and the evolution of humanity. The downside to immortality is that I would live forever, and nothing else would. All of the friends and family I have now would die. Anyone I meet would die, and I would have no one to be at my side. Relationships would be hard because I would always stay the same and stay young, while my girl would age and die. I would miss everybody. It would be a very lonely existance.
2. Omniscience (complete knowledge of everything from every time). Knowing everything has its advantages. Althought this ability is near godly, it would be something I want. I would be able to experience everything... ever. That is one of the things I have wanted my whole life. Everything would be in my memory. I would be able to experience every life that existed, ever. I would be able to experience all my friends lives, the lives of animals. I would also be able to explore everything in my mind. I would be able to explore the universe, planets and everything. There is a downside though. I would be trapped by my knowledge. I would know how everything would turn out, so I could never change anything. (this ability also means that I would live forever. The exactly definition actually means that I am timeless, so life isn't really a factor)
3. Flight. Basic. The ability to just fly away when I felt like it. Many benefits. Could go from place to place very fast. Save alot on gas money. Never have to worry about falling to my death. Explore the world. It can be bad if people find out though. Other people would not accept this and would hate and fear me. Most likely I would be killed orcaptured. If captured I would be questioned, and be forcable mated to create offspring with the ability, then dissected. Fun
4. Control over gravity This would be very similar to flying except a bit more advanced. It would be like using telekinesis (the ability to move objects with mind). I would not only be able to move myself, but anything else as well. This would be useful to protect myself as well. Someone points a gun at me, I would just create supergravity to bend the bullet away from hitting me. I could move objects and most likely make a spaceship that moves with my gravity ability. The bad things would be similar to the flying one, except I would be able to protect myself better. I would have to make sure that I do not create blackholes as well.
5. TeleportationThis has been one of my life long dreams as well. Teleportation. Would be able to go anywhere I have previously been, and anywhere within sight distance. Basically I would make 'waypoints' at locations I would want to go to and then teleport between those points. I would be able to teleport other objects/people as well. Save alot on gas money. And I could be anywhere I was needed instantly. I could go anywhere on the planet, and off planet as well. (eventually, after many jumps). Can mess with people too. Hit someone and disappear. This would be a very fun and useful skill. A few problems. I could 'colide' with other objects unless I was able to safeguard against that. I would be able to avoid getting caught very easily. I could be ambushed and killed though.

So what are some of your wishes/powers you wish you could have?
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Staind - Suffer "Break The Cycle"
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You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on...

I have a passion for lost ships and so I thought that I would write about the most famous ship wreck of all, the Titanic. I don't know why, but I thought it would be interesting to see what you all think of the subject. Well, let's see here..hmmm...

The Titanic is a fascinating and tragic story that can capture a person in an instant (when you don't think of the movie "Titanic" and the mushy romance crap and think about the actual tragedy). It's fascinating how human error can cause so much death and devastation. I mean, so much went wrong when it came to the Titanic and so many mistakes were made as well by various people that were on the great ocean liner. Then there was a few things that were just dumb that happened. For example, how the press and various other people had claimed that the Titanic was "unsinkable". Now if you have a 800+ foot long ship that weighs over 40,000+ tons (something like that, I'm probably over exaggerating)that is made out of steel, wouldn't you know that the ship was sinkable. I mean, I know that there was some new things put into the Titanic that had never been done before, but it should be common sense that anything that's made out of steel or metal can sink. People were really dumb like that I guess back then. Then there is the stupidity of the captain and Ismay (the director of the White Star Line). Ismay wanted headlines for the Titanic and persuaded Captain Smith to go faster and get to New York earlier than scheduled. The Captain, who was to retire after this maiden voyage of the Titanic after 20 something years under him of experience, foolishly accepted Ismay's idea. He and Ismay ignored all the iceberg warnings that other ships were sending them. Then when the ship went down, Ismay got onto a lifeboat instead of being a man and facing his error and going down with his ship. He was a coward. Captain Smith on the other hand was a true captain and stayed with his ship till the bitter end. He did the right thing and was not shamed like Ismay was. Another example of the mistakes and human error that took place is the capacity of the lifeboats and the organization of the loading passengers. There were only enough lifeboats for half the people on Titanic (there were estimated 2,200 people and an estimated 1,500 people were sacrificed). The sad thing is that the lifeboats (which could carry the weight of 70 men) were only half filled because the organization of the evacuation was crappy. There was no organization when it came time to leave the Titanic. Everyone couldn't believe that the Titanic, this unsinkable ship, could really be going under. They would rather stay in the safety of the ship than face the bitter cold of the north Atlantic. Boy, did those people get a rude awakening when the chaos started. Then it came too late, the lifeboats were gone and it became every man, woman, and child left on the sinking Titanic for themselves. There seemed to be a lot of idiots back then in 1912. Finally, there is the fact that 1,500 people went into the ocean once the Titanic had sunk and all except for six people perished from freezing to death. Then only one out of twenty boats went back to save the 1,500 lost souls. Those people didn't have to die, that's the sad thing. They could have been saved, if reaction time had been a bit better. It's one of the most tragic events of the early twentieth century and one that still captivates us to this day. I find it fascinating...what do you think or know? Hmm?
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tired tired
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"My Heart Will Go On" by Celine Dion
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I believe that there is other life out there somewhere in the universe. There has to be, I mean not everyone who claims that there was something that abducted them and experimented on them is crazy. There have been military people who have been given a psychiatric test and come out sane that claimed to have at least seen something other worldly. Also there is Area 51, where there have been employees that have gone to the public claiming that there were people wheeling in alien bodies into Area 51 and there have been assistances that have said they helped dissect the alien bodies. When they were given a psytriactric test, they came out sane. There has to be something out there. It's impossible that Earth is the only planet to carry intelligible life on it. If our planet can do it, then there is another planet out there that can do it too. It just sucks that the government keeps the truth from us. Then again we are such fearful creatures of anything that is not familiar to us that I can see why they don't come out and tell what they know, if anything.

I also believe that ghosts do exist. I believe that some reincarnation processes get screwed up, especially if the person suffered a great pain or have some attachment to the living world. I think that when this happens, the soul is let loose and it travels to the place it is attached to in life. I think they exist in some places because like I said, not everyone is crazy. There has to be something there. Not everyone is delusional or crazy. Though I also think that the eyes do play tricks on people, but still I think that there are ghosts out there...
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tired tired
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meh...
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Okay, as in the earlier dreams, I do get "preminations" when I'm awake, or sleeping, for me it's very easy to tell the difference between a premination and a dream. I have only had three in a row, once when I was little and very recently...

The first one, I believe I was in my past life;
I was a male approaching the side of either a cliff, or a valley, or something of that sort, and I looked down and I saw hundreds of camp fires...I saw no people... just fires...

The second one, I believe was either my future or someone elses... maybe it was present of someone that I didn't know;
I was in a car, and it was rolling and rolling, it rolled maybe 3 times, and then the person that I was experiencing the preminition as died.

The third one, I believe was my future, maybe, maybe not;

I was lying my head down, onto Davids lap, holding our first child.

Comment, tell me what you think.

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confused confused
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What are everyones thoughs on spiritualiy? I for one, find it hard to believe in things that I cannot see or touch. Its hard to believe in something that cannot be proven. And for this I have a strong dislike for organized religion.

Christians base their beliefs off of the bible. Some belive it is meant as a metaphorical guide, others think it is a word by word instruction manual to live by. Eitherway there are many possibilites that can come from this one book, this book that could have been made up by a good Science-Fiction/Fantasy author of the time. And that is only one religion among many...

Back then, the idea of a omnipotent God would entice their imaginations, much like our ideas of aliens do today. I believe that out human thinking process has evolved over the centurys. Now that we find no evidence of Gods and realize that religion may be false, many people are leaving religion behind. We are lookignoutward for new things to believe in. Personally I think it is a weakness to believe in a God. Do humans really need to believe in a 'Heaven' so they will be morally secure? Is this image of a perfect world the only thing that keeps some people from turning against their fellow man? People look up to something above them to see perfection instead of striving for perfection for themselves. It goes with this quote:

"There exists no separation between gods and men; one blends softly casual into the other."

I believe that every decision should be made individually, and not based off a set of rules or morals. It is clear that not everyone is equal. Everyone things differently, everyone believes in different things. Setting all people as equals is not the right thing to do. They should not be classified into groups, every person would have a group of their own. Im not saying that some people are better than others, I'm saying that people are different.

That is why laws against things like abortion are wrong. This is just a highly opinionated matter. No one is right, no one is wrong. Making a law based off of some peoples beliefs is not the right way to go. There are always going to be people on opposite sides of a debate, and some in the middle. Every side has good points, and it always depends on the situation. For example, most people would agree that being force to die is bad. Is it right for there to be a law against abortion when an abortion could save an endangered mothers life? Is it right to kill an unborn fetus? Is a fetus even a seperate living being or is it apart of the mother? If so then the mother has all right to terminate a pregnancy. So laws cannot solve the problems because there is always a circumstance that hasn't been accounted for.

Most people agree with death on some level. We all have to eat plants and animals that have died. Killing is a requirement to live. And that also brings up the question of where we go whe we die. Do we go to a heaven? To me that sounds like a purely human idea to ease the fear of death. "You will go to paradise when you die." Its like telling a kid that his dead dog is actually living happily at a farm somewhere. Even if God did tell us there was a heaven: We would be like little kids, he wouldn't want to scare us with reality, so he tells us there is a paradise. Then there are ideas about reincarnation. This is what i believe in. I must admit that it is a far fetched as going to a heaven when you die, but I have my reasons for this belief. Most likely when we die, that is it, no more, not even an eternal darkness, just nothing, no thoughts, no feelings, whatever our consiousness was... is not anymore. Eternal Nothing. Anyways... reincarnation.

I believe in reincarnation. Why? Because of my dreams, of my thoughts, and the feelings that all this has been done before. That I have experienced more than what happened int his life. Somehow I think that everything that could have been done, has been done. And all that we are left with is the feelings and emotions. As if our minds already have all the knowledge of the universe, but they could never capture the feelings and emotions. There can be no more creativity, as all has been done. Everything we 'create' is actually a reproduction that we already have in our minds. Our human minds are too small to fit all of this 'universal' information, so most of what we know is hidden. Random things are just jammed in our minds from past and future lives. (this is something new, and im not sure if i believe in it or not. My beliefs constantly change and there are always doubts, or they conflict with other beliefs of mine.)

I have had dreams that could have been from other lives. I don't know where else they could have come from. I have little consious creativity. But my dreams are so vivid, the events are so clear, what happens in them is so unique. It is like being in a movie. Perfect smells, sights, sounds, tastes, and perfect touch. Many of my dreams seem to be driven by things that are happening in my life. Others are not. I don't quite understand it. As far as reincarnation goes... I think is is a requirement. What is the point of life if you die and go into nothingness? The only point of life would be to prolong death. What is the point of life if you go into a perfect heaven? The only point is to get there, one there there is no effort to be happy. (happiness is one of the driving force behind life, whether it is personal happiness or happiness for some one else. Ahother force maybe curiosity, or the quest for knowledge). Eitherway you only get one chance. Reincarnation can bring about many things. It is more like our lives; we can learn from our mistakes. We cannot choose what we will have going from one life to another, but our emotions and feelings will stick with us. As if we are driven by our sub-consious. Our consious just THINKS its in control, when its not. I think that I am closer to the real 'me' when my consiousnes is shutdown. Like when I am asleep, or in a dazed mood. And I believe that somewhere deep in this sub-consiousness is something that can be awoken. When it is, my true self will emerge and I will be the real 'me'. I have no idea what would set this awakening off, but it would have to be in a moment of intense emotion filled with helplessness.

Religion does not play a part in my live because it does not fit me. I cannot believe in something that is higher than me, that refuses to show itself or make its presence known. I can't have a strict moral standard because things are always inconstant and decisions can't just be 'yes or no'. I do not like having constraints placed upon me, i like it to be up to my judgement to see what is right or wrong. And I know better than to pray to a higher being for something to get done. People should believe in themselves, not others that may or may not help. I have preyed for things that are completely out of my control, things that are commited to destiny or fate. Although neither can be changed, it is always the HOPE that things will work out fine that drives it.

Hope is the best and worse thing that humans have. Hope can make a person hold on to something long past when it should have been discarded. If things work out in the end it is a very good thing as the goal is obtained, if things do not work out in the end time and enegry will have been wasted... not to mention the emotional stress of a log hoped for thing suddenly becoming hopeless. The lack of hope completely kills a persons willingness to do something. This can be good as it stops people from trying the impossible, and can be bad as it stops people from trying at all.

I leave at that note. I have said alot about my thougths and philosophies about actions and spirtuality.
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Limp Bizkit - Lonely World
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